Friday, October 05, 2007
DOTEDTSY or BE BRAVE
Today has been a good day. The weather's cool and cloudy--I even had to turn on my little space heater out in the studio, just to take the chill off! Love this time of year. I started working on four new pieces. I find I work better if I don't have to twiddle my thumbs while waiting for the paint to dry. So I'm being cozy and productive at the same time! Also, I'm rereading Steinbeck's The Grapes of Wrath at lunchtimes, starting today--I do love Steinbeck. And, I've already done one load of wash and cleaned the kitchen! Yesiree, it's a good day.
I've needed to be brave twice today. The first thing I did was to talk to someone who has recently accused me of some bad stuff. I'm sure she knows, deep down, that this stuff is not true. This is someone I have called a friend, someone I have defended and supported and all that other stuff friends do for each other. I realize now that we've never really been friends, as you don't turn on a friend the way she has turned on me. But--and this is the hard part--I'm letting that go. I'm not angry, just sad, but I'm not going to avoid her just to help her feel better. So I talked to her this morning, just the way I would have a month ago. I can tell she felt uncomfortable, but that's okay. I feel like knowing the truth has freed me in some way, and has certainly explained some things that have happened in the last six months or so...
I've chosen two pieces to send off to Somerset Studio. This decision has been complicated by the fact that I've sold a few of my faces. But I've chosen, because I realized that this is NOT the only time I can EVER EVER EVER submit something. It's just the first time. So if, in two weeks, I make something that I love even more than I do 'The Juggler' and 'In the Clear Wild Star Light,' I can send that in, too.
Not every decision is a final, momentous one.
Not only am I brave, I'm profound, too!